lets just say... this needs to be read
1. This break so far- this two days of break have been absolutely refreshing to my mind. Talking to samantha over the hookah has made me realize so much. Things that havent even crossed my mind in years. It scares me to think that these days are passing by so fast- break this week- three weeks after that until cancun- a month after that until graduation. This is crazy. But im loving every single second of it.
2. realization number one: Showing that you care to the people that you do care about means so much. Ive gone months without talking to relatives and friends that have meant so much to me in the past- and the second you get that random call saying I miss you, or Im so proud of your scholastic rewards- has made me realize that I need to appriciate all of the people that are a huge part of my life. and i do, Its just hard to show it to people that you don't spend that much time with. So i soon will be in the process of contacting all those that I love- including a hopefully heart to heart with the mother that i barly speak to.
3. realization number two: being fake wont get you anywhere- i mean thats a given no need to explain.
4. realization number three: Always be on good terms with someone you care about before ending a conversation. There have been way too many deaths of people in the area over drug use; and one just yesterday of someone I personally didn't know. It affected me completley tho. This kid thats 14 years old that lives in a sub near by was snow mobiling on Cass Lake. Another person was snow mobiling, they didnt see eachother- and crashed face to face. The 14 year old boy ended up dead; the older man ended up in the hospital and now has short term memory. It turns out the survivor (thank god he survived) is the next door neighbor of this 14 year old boy. His parents most likly said to him before he left: have fun and be careful. Who would have ever thought that they would never get to hear his voice again. After the police showing up at their house, my sisters frined Hailees mom (who are also neighbors to this boy) heard the parents screaming to this boy to wake up- I never ever want to have to go through this. Death is inevitable. Be safe and always say i love you every chance you can.
5. realization number 5: Woak up at 8:30 today with sammy. We had the hole day planned out to the end, and it turned out 1,000 times better than we had even expected- After visiting her grandma; she told me she had a dark room. Her husband who had passed away five years ago used to do photography for a hobbie. This beautiful generous lady told me that she could not put a price on this dark room equipment that she had- and offered all of it to me for no price. She said that her husband would have loved for it to go to a good cause- and if it were to help me out then why not. This is one of the most generous offers anybody has given me- i could not even begin to estimate the price of this equiptment- but she can just hand it over to a stranger like i have known her forever. How fortunate are we to have such people in this world. In a world of what we see as every day hatred we need to look around us and realize its NOT like that; the news just gives us the evil to overlook. Spending about an hour and a half with sam and her grandma made me realize how much i miss my grandma; and how much i wish i could have just said goodbye to her. I felt the need to cry my eyes out when i was saying bye to sams grandma because i just had this feeling of love in me.
6. This equpiment can really help me out. I have realized that this is a sign to go forward with this photography stuff. Things dont just fall into your hands for no reason. EVERYTHING happens for a reason.
Thanks so much Mrs. Solomon.
Much love to EVERYBODY who is reading this; and just think twice about everything. I know im a deep thinker but how else are you going to put things together in life and get anywhere without being like this.
Can this get any better?
and watch magnolia. please
<3 jaclyn.
soon to come!
